Catching Up

It's been two months already since my last post. I honestly have no idea what to talk about in this entry. I just felt the need to update my blog. Although I'm currently preoccupied with duty requirements, long tests, and exams, there are still certain things that I can't seem to get off my head. I still need more time maybe. But anyhow, I would like to believe that I'm doing so much better now. Even though I'm not really good at the art of ignoring and keeping calm in faulty situations, but I'm doing my very best to do so (and hey, it's kind of working actually). I have decided to handle every situation that is happening in my life right now smartly, such as behaving with class and keeping in mind the important values that my family and my friends have inculcated in me. Basically, just trying to focus on the good vibes and disregarding the negative ones. Nothing is ever impossible with God and time. Hold on and keep the faith. :)

[Too Bothered To Even Think Of A Decent Title]

Note: I do not intend to promote this blog entry because I think that it's too personal and dramatic. I made this just for the sake of letting out [somehow] some of the burden inside me.

I am, once again, for the nth time, bothered. To be honest, I would rather be bothered by my grades than graver things in life. I'm not being ungrateful for my grades though, and I'm not belittling other people's feelings about their grades as well and trying to imply that it is something not to worry about; but in my case right now, I would have to admit that being troubled by my grades is far way better than the serious things in life.

I feel being left behind again. It seems like I'm always the last person in line. I know that I've asked God several times to lengthen my patience and strengthen even more my faith in Him, but [God], does it have to be this challenging and heart-breaking? I feel like giving up already. Seriously. Even by just merely thinking of those piled up problems makes me want to surrender right now. As in now. But still, I will try my best to give those problems a good fight. And I will make sure that victory will eventually be mine and the final laugh, too. *trying to be positive here*

P.S. Yes, I'm still not over some things in my life, but I'm working on it though. As much as I would like to end it all up already, I'm taking all the time I need to make sure that when I say "I'm over it," I'm really over it without any pretensions at all. Although I may not be over it yet, but I don't want to become a fool anymore.

So. Yeah. Whatever.

Ampalaya Is A Veggie, Not An Ugali

MGA BABALA AT PAALALA:

• ANG BLOG ENTRY NA ITO AY NAGTATAGLAY NG MGA SAMU'T-SARING PAKSA. KUNG SA IYONG PALAGAY AY HINDI MO KAKAYANIN, MAS MAINAM NA HUWAG MO NANG IPAGPATULOY ANG PAGBABASA.
• ANG MGA TINUTUKOY NG BLOGGER SA ENTRY NA ITO AY ANG KALAHATAN. MULI, KUNG SA IYONG PALAGAY AY IKAW ANG TINUTUKOY, ITO AY HINDI SINASADYA AT WALANG PANANAGUTAN ANG BLOGGER...PATI NA RIN PAKI-ALAM. 
• KUNG SAKALI MANG IPINAGPATULOY MO ANG PAGBABASA, BAHALA KA NA SA BUHAY MO KUNG ANO ANG PAGKAINTINDI MO SA BLOG ENTRY NA ITO. TUTAL NAMAN, MATANDA KA NA AT NASA HUWASTONG PAG-IISIP.
• HIGIT SA LAHAT, HINDI ITO ISANG PASARING.

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Nagtapos ako ng high school with honors. Siguro nga matalino ako: sa pag-aaral, oo, pero pagdating sa ibang larangan ng buhay, hindi ko masasabi. Marami-rami na rin ang mga napagdaan ko sa buhay -- syempre, pinaghalu-halong saya at lungkot. Marami na rin ang nakapagsabing suplado at malakas ang loob ko, pero hindi pa siguro nila ako lubos na kilala, hindi nila alam na, gaya rin ng isang normal na tao, nasaktan na rin ako nang maraming beses. Gayunpaman, ako ay lubos na nagagalak sa mga aral na aking nakuha sa mga ibat-ibang klaseng pangyayari sa buhay ko. Ikanga, "Experience is the best teacher."

Sa aking pananaw, ito ang semester na kung saan maraming akong na-realize at natutunan sa buhay:

• Bawal ang mahina. Nagkalat sa aking paligid ang mga taong handang i-take advantage ang aking kahinaan. Yung iba pa nga halatang nananadya eh. Hindi ko nalang sinasabi kasi ayaw ko namang basagin ang trip nila. Ayaw ko rin namang ipagkait ang kaligayahan nila. Hindi ako nagpapaapi kundi nagiging mabait lang. Isa pa, dapat nga akong maging masaya hindi ba dahil pinagkakaabalahan pa nila na guluhin ang akala-nilang-miserable kong buhay despite sa pagiging busy nila sa kani-kanilang buhay. At alam ko na mapapagod din sila balang-araw. Sila na nga ang nag-aksaya ng oras, sila pa ang nalinlang, at, sa huli, sila pa ang napagod. Kawawa naman pala sila at hindi ako. Ganyan talaga siguro kapag wala kang magawang matino sa buhay mo na sa sobrang walang saysay (sense), nangingi-alam ka nalang sa buhay ng may buhay. Sa ngayon, pinagwawalang pansin ko nalang ang ganyang klaseng mga tao. Oh sige, para hindi naman masyadong bitter pakinggan, nginingiti-an ko nalang sila. :)

• "Matalino man daw ang matsing, naiisahan din." Isa sa mga nakakaasar na bagay ay yung pakiramdam na naisahan ka. Alam kong gustong-gusto mong makaganti pero relax muna. Ikanga, "Never make decisions when you are angry." At isa pa, huwag mong ipahalata na affected ka. Ikaw lang ang lugi. Magpasalamat ka nalang na nangyari na at natapos na. Gamitin mo nalang ang pangyayaring iyon para i-evaluate ang iyong sarili kung saan ka nagkulang at nagkamali para the next time you will face the same situation, alam na alam mo na kung ano ang mga dapat gawin. Try to squeeze something good out from every situation - be it good or bad - in your life. Lakad lang nang lakad. Bahala na kung trying hard ka sa paningin nila, eh wala naman talagang mangyayari sa buhay mo kung hindi ka mag-ta-try hindi ba. :)

• Mag-ingat kung kanino mo ibibigay ang iyong tiwala sa mga issues ng buhay mo. Gaya nga ng sinabi ko sa previous blog entry ko, mabibilang lang ang mga taong tunay na nagmamalasakit sa iyo. Marami ang willing na makinig sa iyong problema pero, sad to say, baka hanggan doon lang talaga sila. Sayang lang ang tiwala na ibinigay mo sa kanila at sinayang din nila ang opportunity na pagkatiwalaan ng isang tao. Ang sarap kaya sa feeling na pagkatiwalaan ka ng isang tao tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay, personal man o hindi, sa kanyang buhay. Siguro, baka nakaligtaan lang ng mga magulang nila na i-emphasize ang kahalagahan ng respeto sa isang tao. :)

• Huwag bitter. Syempre, at some point, hindi natin maiiwasan maging bitter, tao lang din naman tayo. Pero sadyang may mga mapagpanggap na tao: hindi raw bitter pero halata naman sa kilos. "Actions speak louder than words," mga ate at kuya (pansin ko lang, ang hilig ko mag-quote). May pa-"Do not do unto others blah blah..." pa kayong nalalaman, hindi niyo naman pala kayang i-walk ang talk niyo. Moving on, huwag tayong bitter dahil tayo lang din ang lugi sa huli. Huwag natin i-stress ang mga sarili natin sa mga walang kwentang bagay. Mag-focus nalang tayo sa mga great things na naiwan [at nagpaiwan] sa atin. Ang sarap maging masaya. :)

It may be difficult at first, but I believe that sooner or later there will come a point that all the sadness and mourning will eventually end, and we will learn to accept what happened and move on with our precious lives. :)

"To love is to will for the good of another." - RS, part of question no. 12

Stones From Heaven

Watch out, it's raining stones! Be careful not to get hit hard though.

As the Earth completes another successful rotation, the world is getting filled up slowly with so much insincerity and inconsistency. This cruel phenomenon results to a drastic reduction - almost to extinction - of the population of trustworthy people. Due to this very alarming turn of events, one must master the art of deciphering precisely. Unlike any other skills to master, this does not consume so much time for the moment you discover [and prove] a person's unreliability, that person belongs automatically to those who you should trust with your life issues less [or not at all].

And so, even if I'm afraid to admit, maybe this almost used up quote was right after all: "Be careful who you tell your problems to, most just want to know the story and the rest are glad you have them."

Let's Play A Game

Snake and Ladders used to be one of my favorite board games when I was younger. I'm sure most of you know the mechanics of the game already. Well actually, I enjoy and hate it at the same time, here's why:

Basically, your fate depends on the number the dice shows. As much as you want to take control over it, you simply cannot. Unfortunately, it all depends on pure luck and nothing else.

Ladders. Oh the joy that ladders bring. They give you the boost that you need in the game. They make the game easier to win, easier to say, "I'm almost there!" But sadly, there are few ladders as compared to the snakes.

Snakes. Watch out - just when you thought that you're almost there - the snake is there and ready to eat you all up and pull you down. Hence, you have no other choice but to roll the dice up and start moving forward all over again. It sucks, isn't it? Well, you just have to deal with it because it is really designed to be part of the game. You just have to be brave enough to start from the very beginning.

Sometimes, it is better to play the game slowly yet surely. You may not be getting boosts from the ladders, but at least somehow you are moving forward and trying to face the snakes along the way. Soon enough, you would not even notice that you have gotten to where you wanted to be in already. And it is more rewarding, I should say, because you really did a lot of hard work to be able to reach the end.

The Temporary Happiness

Aside from the warmth, it provides me the comfort that I have been longing for from you.

It is quite loose, but I do not mind for it perfectly covers my upper body, as if it is you hugging me.

Its color may be dull, but it somehow does brighten up my mood.

Its distinct aroma that reminds me of you.

It may just be a normal thing for many, but they do not know how much it means to me.

It somehow gives me the assurance that you are here with me and will always be.

So, let me be embraced by this temporary happiness.

The Unexpected

I was happy with my life until one day, I encountered these:

an unripe mango,

a piece of rock,

an expensive diamond,

and a lawyer with a kind heart.

An unripe mango. I was hurriedly running after somebody. I was heading towards the corner of the street, almost ready to turn right, but I accidentally bumped into somebody. I asked for an apology, not even minding who that person was. My attention was caught by this very huge tree. The tree bore bountiful, bright yellow, heart-shaped mangoes. But what caught my attention even more was this single, light green, still heart-shaped mango. Judging from its looks, it was still unripe. I was amazed how it stood up among those ripe mangoes. It was unique, definitely. I could not resist to pick it. As fast as my mouth was salivating, I peeled the mango then excitedly took a bite. It tasted sour, very sour. I spit it out to the ground. My fault – I guess it was just not ready to be picked from the tree yet.

A piece of rock. As I turned my face to the ground, I saw a piece of rock. It was not too big nor was it too small. Unlike any other rock, it was white – as if it was never been soiled. I touched it, then knocked on it. I decided to kick it a little, then kicked it a little harder, then even harder. But it did not move nor show any cracks. It was really hard. And it was as numb as you could ever imagine.

An expensive diamond. My attention was diverted again. I noticed that the person I bumped into earlier was still there, standing, observing my every actions. But before I finally glanced at that person's face, I noticed that that person was wearing an authentic diamond ring. I could not help to stare at it for a couple of seconds. It was glistening so brightly. But just like any other brightness, it brought pain to my eyes, tears almost fell down, but luckily I was able to hold it in.

A lawyer with a kind heart. I immediately looked away from the diamond ring. It was too much for my eyes to handle already. Then I heard somebody asked if I was okay. It was the person I bumped into earlier. I pretentiously said that I was okay and that I can still handle the burning pain in my eyes. The person asked for an apology, but I said that it was not necessary. The person was actually kind and understanding, although it was really my fault in the first place. We chatted for a while, then parted ways right after without any formal goodbyes. Then as I continued walking, I remembered that the person mentioned about being a lawyer. “But lawyers are great liars,” I sadly pondered. Nevertheless, I was still hoping that that person I bumped into earlier was different from all the lawyers I had known out there.

Until our paths meet again.

25 Truths

*Grabbed from Facebook*

1. Many people say that I'm OC, so maybe I'm OC nga. I'm very particular about the organization of things. I want things to happen as planned or in order. Otherwise, it irritates and bothers me. And sige, I'm kind of a neat-freak na rin. I actually have an alcohol, tissue, and oil remover inside my sling bag.

2. I over-think most of the time. Oftentimes, it gets me into trouble because of misinterpreting things. And because I over-analyze situations, I usually end up frustrated and depressed.

3. I'm very seloso. As in very. I do not usually make it obvious though.

4. I used to be overly grade conscious. It was like my elementary and high school life revolved around getting high grades and maintaining my rank in class only. There were also instances when I could not help but cry because of having really bad scores. I get frustrated easily that's why. But not anymore in college. Yes, I still care about my grades, but it's alright for me to get average scores as long as I'm pressure-free as much as possible and I still pass. Kind of mediocre really, but I guess I'm too tired and fed up of studying too much already.

5. I'm passive ever since I started studying. I usually decline when my classmates decide to make me the leader. I have very minimal skills for that kasi eh. And isa pa, I think that their ideas are better than mine. But when I have something to suggest (and when I think that my idea is finally better than theirs), I speak it out.

6. I'm not an artistic person. I prefer simple and plain designs (and I find them neat to look at din kasi).

7. I would like to believe that I have a nice penmanship. From Grade 3 to Grade 6, hindi mawawala ang Best in Writing sa mga awards ko. I'm OC din when it comes to my penmanship. I want it to be aligned well and consistent dapat ang size.

8. When I was a kid, I used to pretend as a doctor. But when I found out that it's a lengthy process to become one, I had second thoughts na. That's why I wanted to take up Mass Comm na when I was in 4th year since I was into journalism naman din, but I ended up with Nursing anyway.

9. I once became a choir member. I was in 2nd year high school then. That was my first time to sing on stage, and I still could not believe that I was able to do that. I quit after a year because we were required to focus on at least two school orgs lang daw, so I decided to prioritize dancing and writing nalang.

10. I was OC with my hair when I was in elementary. I get mad when my classmates ruin my hair, even if by accident lang. But not anymore when I reached high school.

11. Many see me as maldito and snob. Honestly, I'm never good in making friends. Ask my friends and they will tell you na sila ang unang umapproach sa akin. I'm outgoing and talkative once you get to know me well. Usually kasi, nakikiramdam muna ako sa personality and attitude ng person that's why I'm silent at the beginning. And sorry about my eyes. Hindi ako nang-iirap, ganyan lang talaga ako tumingin sa tao.

12. Believe me, I have a big appetite. But I don't get fat. Boo!

13. Volleyball has been my sport since elementary. I play badminton, too, but not as much as volleyball.

14. When I get LSS, I usually play the song for the entire day. Minsan pa nga, days! I just love listening to RnBs and acoustics.

15. Hate That I Love You by Neyo and Rihanna has been my fave song since 3rd year high school.

16. So here's the thing, when I was in elementary, my mom used to scold me whenever I made mistakes in writing - be it copying a wrong word or just a simple misalignment - for projects.

17. I'm nearsighted. (175:150, L:R)

18. I love eating Pik-Nik! And anything na fried potato chips.

19. I hate cockroaches, especially if they're flying!

20. I didn't take the entrance exams of UP, Ateneo, La Salle, and UST because I knew that I was going to take up Nursing anyway. So, Xavier ang sinure ko i-take.

21. I used to go home during long weekends. But when I became a volleyball varsity of our college and started training already, naenganyo nako mag-stay here in Cagayan. Na-overpower ng volleyball ang desire ko umuwi ng province.

22. I usually make blog entries at night. Hindi kasi ako makapag-isip nang matino kung morning. And may "senti" feeling din kasi at night. Contemplation kumbaga.

23. I'm very impatient. Well, depende sa situation, but mostly, impatient talaga ako.

24. When I become too stressed out, I talk to myself.

25. My current motto in life: "Keep your head high. Keep your heart strong."

Where Did The Good Times Go?

Time flies by so quickly. So quickly that you cannot even notice that it has gone by already. Add to that the saying, "Change is the only permanent thing in the world." What happens when you combine both? Well, I really do not know, but you will either like it or hate it. As for me, I'm more on the latter. I believe that almost everything in my life has changed drastically - most were even unexpected and unimaginable. I terribly miss how things used to be.

I wish to have the power to stop things [and even people perhaps] from changing. It is sad that we can only accept and deal with these changes that are constantly happening in our lives. But as they say, "Life must go on."

P.S. Sorry for reposting this. I accidentally deleted the original entry. (8/10/12)

The Not-so-Sweet Dreams

Before anything else, I would like to clarify this: Is a bangungot called a nightmare in English? I'm uncertain, that's why. And I think that a bangungot is worse than a nightmare (if ever they are not similar) because a  nightmare for me is just plainly having bad dreams while a bangungot has this fighting-for-your-life feeling. I really do not know. Sorry.

Anyway, I usually do not experience having bangungots (Oh di ba, talagang kinonsider ko na different ang bangungot sa nightmare.). In fact, I had my very first bangungot, I believe so, last June this year. Of course, it was my first time so I got very paranoid and frightened then. And a day prior to that, my dutymates and I were sharing stories about bangungots. I got scared actually, so I think it was one of the precipitating factors why I'm having bangungots right now. Thank you, guys. Haha.

Weird but I only experience having a bangungot once a month, I just do not know yet for this month. Also, it usually happens when the month is about to end. But surprisingly, it happened earlier than expected this month (as in I just had one right now). So far, I would have to say that my second experience was the worst. It took me several attempts of waking up before I finally did. As in several. There were instances when I thought that I was awake already, but I was wrong. It was also during that time when I remembered that trying to move your big toe could help overcome a bangungot.

I'm not sure though if this applies  to other people who also experience bangungots, but I actually feel an aura before having it. I just do not know how to explain it precisely though. But seriously, having a bangungot gives me some of the worst feelings ever. During the bangungot, I feel paralyzed and helpless. I have this strong urge to open my eyes and move my body parts and scream for help but I simply cannot do so. It's like my soul's separating from my body already. Creepy, I know.

I think what bothers me most about having episodes of bangungots is the thought of failing to wake up. I'm worried that maybe one day my body will eventually get tired of trying to wake up. But I do believe that it will only happen if I do not have the reason to wake up anymore (char, segue).

Sleep well, guys.

A Diary of A Weakling

Sometimes, I hate myself more than they [the people who hate me] do. I cannot get hold of my emotions well. There are just certain times wherein I just have to let it all out - regardless of whatever the outcome will be. I just have to or else those emotions will continue haunting me. Those emotions bother me: I feel uneasy and anxious; I even reach the point of staring into nothingness. Nevertheless, I try my best to hide what I truly feel. I don't want to involve other people, especially my friends. I don't want them to worry about me. I don't want to interfere with their seemingly happy lives. Most of all, I don't want to ruin any form of relationships. After all, I'm used to this kind of feeling already. But I'm just quite unsure though if I could handle this well. I hope to overcome this soon.

For Today Was Just Another Day

Another day flew away.

Another day overpowered by sadness.

Another day filled with regrets.

Another day disappointed by expectations.

Another day filled with worries.

Another day ruined by frustrations.

Another day killed by heartaches.

Another day that revealed weakness.

Another day put into waste.

Another day that brought a brand new pain.

Nothing was surprising,

For today was just another day.

Beyond The Lines

Random thoughts for today:

Sticks and stones.

The addictive mist of misery.

Deep blue sea.

Needle prick, paper cut, skin abrasion.

Two-faced King of Hearts.

The great pretender.

Monalisa's mysterious smile.

Day 10 onwards.

Paranoia, ideas of reference.
Low serotonin level.

The unheard sorrow.
The unnoticed beggar.

Win some, lose many.

The Paranoid Self

There's no point in convincing myself that I don't care because in reality, I do care so much.

I can lie to many people but, sadly, I cannot lie to myself. Myself knows me so much; more than my family and close friends, if there are any, I should say. No matter how much I try to hide and suppress what I truly feel, myself can still detect that I'm just faking it. As a result, I, for one, look down at myself, too. And oftentimes, I experience self-pity. Many people thought that I was lucky and blessed graduating high school with honors; I actually thought so, too, but only at first. I was living the moment then -- flattering myself by other people's compliments and praises, overwhelming myself by the privileges that some college schools offered me, and having that strong self-confidence that I never ever had before. However, along with that was the intense pressure I felt brought about by the thought that many people are expecting so much from me. Whenever I hear previous graduates from my alma mater graduating college with honors, I cannot help but envy them because I know very well that my chances for that are minimal already. Also, I'm afraid that they might compare me with them. This is also one of the reasons why I don't usually hangout with my high school friends and visit my alma mater whenever I'm at the province. It's way too embarrassing on my part. I feel so useless and think that I'm such a huge disappointment. I feel degraded actually. But then again, no matter how much I try to deny it, myself never fails to slap me on the face and say, "Who are you trying to fool?"

Just Another Definition of Love

If I were randomly asked about what love is or what its essence is, I would answer this:

The real essence of love, for me, is getting what you give in return or even getting more than what you give in return. I strongly believe that love is deeply rooted in sincerity which means that love is authentic; love is something that should not be taken just for granted because love should be taken seriously as love is a serious matter. Also, just like every thing else in the world, love has to be earned. You have to prove to the person that you are worthy indeed for his/her love. Basically, love is a give-and-take relationship and that there should be a mutual feeling as well. And most importantly, I should say, love has to start from deep within yourself. You cannot love somebody if you do not know how to love yourself in the first place. Just like in teaching, a teacher cannot teach his students something that he has no idea about. You cannot just "spread" the love if you do not have it in you from the very beginning.

Blame Boredom

I know I'm supposed to be posting blog entries, but I'm just bored so please forgive me. :)

NAME: Rick Angelo Cruz Sy

AGE: 19

BIRTHDATE: February 24

PRESENT ADDRESS: Cagayan de Oro City

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = Water

2. last phone call = Christine Hazel

3. last text message = Shykie Jean

4. last song you listened to = You're All I Need to Get By by AI 11 Top 3

5. last time you cried = The other day

6. dated someone twice = Nope

7. been cheated on =  I guess so

8. kissed someone & regretted it = Nope

9. lost someone special = Yes

10. been depressed =  Most of the time

11. been drunk and threw up = Yes, unfortunately

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Blue

13. Green

14. Pink

LAST YEAR (2011), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = Of course

16. Fallen out of love = Yes, I think

17. Laughed until you cried = Yup

18. Met someone who changed you = Nope

19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = I think yes?

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = I don't know the exact number, but I'm glad to say that majority of my friends.

24. Do you have any pets = Before. They died already. :(

25. Do you want to change your name = No, thanks!

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Ate out with friends

27. What time did you wake up today =  11:30AM

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Tweeting

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = March next year!

30. Last time you saw your Mother = May 14

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Matters regarding my family

32. What are you listening to right now = Stuttering by Jessica Sanchez

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? =  Not yet

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Read my previous entry

38. Relationship Status = Single

39. Zodiac sign =  Pisces

40. He or She = He

41. Elementary = Timber City Academy

42. High School = Timber City Academy

44. Hair color = Black

45. Long or short =  What are you referring about?

46. Height = I actually do not know and I'm not even interested to find out :p

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Of course

48. What do you like about yourself? = Many to mention :p

49. Piercings = One only

50. Tattoos = None

51. Righty or lefty=  Righty

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery = Stitching near left eye

53. First piercing = Left ear

54. First best friend = None

55. First sport you joined = Volleyball

56. First vacation = Cagayan de Oro

58. First pair of trainers = None because I'm not that athletic eversince

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = No

60. Drinking = No

61. I'm about to = Answer the next item

62. Listening to = Stuttering by Jessica Sanchez

63. Waiting for = Dreams, wishes and plans to come true

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids? = Sure

65. Get Married? = Sure

66. Career? = Nurse/Doctor/VJ or Host

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = Eyes

68. Hugs or kisses=  Hugs

69. Shorter or taller = Taller

70. Older or Younger = Older

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = None

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger = Nope

77. Drank hard liquor = Yes?

78. Lost glasses/contacts = Almost

79. Sex on first date = Nope

80. Broke someone's heart = I don't know

81. Had your own heart broken = Yes

82. Been arrested = Never

83. Turned someone down = I think so

84. Cried when someone died = Yes

85. Fallen for a friend = Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = Seldom only

87. Miracles = Seldom also

88. Love at first sight = No

89. Heaven = Maybe

90. Santa Claus = Not anymore

91. Kiss on the first date = No

92. Angels = Maybe

Sister Act 2: Nothing Beats The Classic

Goosebumps from beginning to end! I seriously had teary eyes after watching these vids, it brought back wonderful childhood memories. Nostalgia lang. Yun pala siguro ang feeling when you're moved by a song filled with so much sincere emotions. Cheers! :)

A+ for The Avengers

  So, after 48 years, I have finally seen The Avengers. It's also the first movie I watched in 3D, and hindi na rin masama. I actually didn't appreciate the 3D effect much at first, good thing binawi sa middle towards the end of the movie. There was this scene wherein Hulk was attacking and destroying a jet plane (Hahaha. Is that how you call it?), as he was dismantling it, he threw a piece of it towards the screen and nagulat talaga ako kasi I thought it was going to hit me. Silly right? My involuntary reflex's responsible for that na. Pati yung smoke and virtual computer screens were almost within my reach.

  What is great about this movie is that you get more than what you pay for. Given na ang fact that it's mostly an action film, but who would have expected that there would be some comedy scenes in it din? I'm not actually in to this kind of film. In fact, wala kahit isang movie akong nakita sa mga casts ng The Avengers, yet, here I am, fan na ng movie. So, how much more nalang kaya for those who have seen the movies of some of the casts prior to watching The Avengers, hindi ba?

  Speaking of the casts, they did an excellent job portraying their characters. They were undeniably fit for their roles. Super benta and believable. Although there were standouts for me such as Iron man, Captain America, and Thor, you'd still get to love and appreciate all of them. Here's what I think about each character:

  Iron Man. Seriously, I thought at first that he was the leader of the team, it's Captain America pala. Sino ba naman ang hindi mag-aakala? He's smart, wealthy, strategic, and powerful. And don't forget his great sense of humor, too. Yes, he's actually the funniest among the avengers. He's super cool and chill all throughout the movie. He's my fave actually. Here's the proof:

  Captain America. A muscular man in a blue suit carrying along a disc-shaped, indestructible shield – yup, that's Cap America. Let's face it, his charm towards the audience is just irresistible. Unlike Iron man, he is focused. He dislikes to mess around -- a trait of a good leader indeed.

  Thor. The God of Thunder. Thor's funny, too. At first I thought he was a villain, but not pala. He combats using his hammer that can create thunder. Only he is able to use it. And it must be really heavy for even The Incredible Hulk can't lift it up from the ground. He's thoughtful and concerned towards his step-brother, Loki.

  Hawk Eye. I thought he was a villain also and the right hand of Loki, but it turned out that Loki only manipulated him. With his bow and arrow, he displays his immense prowess in archery. He's the most accurate in targeting the enemies. Indeed, his eyes are as keen as a hawk's (captain obvious :p).

  Black Widow. This girl has serious skills in flying jet planes and even bigger jet planes (Again, sorry. Hahaha.). I think before she became part of the avengers, she used to be a member of the Charlie's angels. Don't you think so, too? Hahaha. Black widow handles guns well din. She's fierce, brave, and aggressive. Rawr.

  Hulk. Mga later part of the movie na nagpakitang gilas si Hulk. He's a monster: he can take on anybody – even the Gods such as Thor and Loki – and anything – Thor's mighty hammer and the enemies' numerous bullets. Hulk feeds on his own anger and it makes him even stronger. I think even the best anger management therapy known to humanity won't work on him. :p

  Loki. He's the villain in the movie and the step-brother of Thor. He had his own share of funny lines and scenes din that's why I didn't despise him that much. However, he still gave the avengers a hard time putting things back to how they were.

  I highly recommend this movie talaga, guys. A must watch! It's definitely worth your money and time. Kaya for those who haven't seen the movie yet, watch na kayo and be amazed by The Avengers. :)

Lights, Camera, Action!

  Choosing a dashboard name was really a challenge for me. It was difficult to come up with a name that would catch people's attention. And after a serious deliberation with myself, I decided to name my dashboard as Mr. Di-RICK-tor (As in DIRECTOR. Havey naman hindi ba? Hahaha.). Sumagi rin sa isip ko ang “RicKology”, derived from a book na kinagiliwan namin 2 months ago – Kokology. The book is about knowing yourself even more and finding out who you really are. Nakakaaliw siya talaga, try niyo. Anyway, I thought of naming my dashboard as RicKology kasi nga gusto ko na the contents of my blog entries soon will only contain the truth. I created this blog account in order to express freely what I really feel and para na rin may magawa this summer. So, mag-expect na kayo ng mga intense emotions most of the time. Hahaha. Nevertheless, hindi rin naman napaglalayo ang Mr. Di-RICK-tor from RicKology eh, halos same lang ng reason why which is ang pagiging true to oneself.

  Why did I choose Mr. Di-RICK-tor as my dashboard's name nga ba? Everything has a reason, ikanga. Well, first of all, I consider myself as my own director. For those who are wondering right now if I believe in God, opo, I believe in God. It's just that it's not necessary to be completely dependent on Him, right? “Nasa atin ang gawa.” It is wrong to just sit down, anticipate for signs, and wait for His blessings to pour down upon us “miraculously”. And besides guys, we're not puppets (Ok, this didn't sound good din, but whatever.).

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  We are capable of doing things we want to do, pursuing ambitions we truly desire, making our dreams come true, and most importantly, standing on our feet independently.

  Lights. Let's say that the lights symbolize our outlook in life. Maraming lights sa isang studio. I'm certain that not all lights omit equal brightness: may sobra, may katamtaman, at may malapit nang mapundi. If we decide to look at the brightest light, nakakasilaw at first. If our eyes have been exposed to it for too long, it could damage our eyes and possibly cause blindness. Hence, I present you those arrogant and overconfident people who think they're on top of everybody. On the contrary, if we decide to look at the least bright light, our vision could get blurry. Hence, I present you those pessimistic, depressed, and people with suicidal tendencies na rin. Obviously, we should look at the light that gives the enough amount of brightness. Sapat lang, hindi OA. Hence, I present you those optimistic, determined, and hard working people in search for a brighter light.

  Camera. A camera follows and records our every move, that's why we should be careful with our actions. However, I'm not trying to mean that we should limit our actions and stick to the norms strictly, that's kaplastikan already. A great movie is measured by its impact to the viewers, yung tipong nakaka-relate sila. So, we should keep our feet on the ground at all times. And even if there are millions of people watching us, we should keep in mind always that expressing what we really feel is definitely much, much, much better than impressing them.

  Action. Ito na ang cue to do our thing. Of course, dapat akma sa situation. If you've memorized and rehearsed what's on the script well, then great: no more long shoots and retakes. This means that since you've planned your strategies on how to face life well, you get a step (or even steps) closer to your goal, and I sincerely congratulate you for that! It's not as easy as it seems kaya! However, it's fine to commit mistakes at times. Don't worry, marami pa naman extra films eh! Pero wag aabuso, mauubos din yan eventually at may bonus pa na regrets (Binawi ang pagiging optimistic? Hahaha.). What matters most is the lesson that it taught you. It's more of a blessing in disguise actually kasi you get to discover your weaknesses. And once alam mo na yung weakness mo, you can make some enhancements on that weakness and magiging veteran ka rin soon. :)

   Oh sya, enough of this already. Mag-cu-cue na raw tayo, guys. Ready na? ”Lights, camera, action!”